More Healing Work - Quick Note

I did another sound healing session on my Mate today. He wasn't having any specific physical pain complaints this time. I had the feeling that I should be working in His solar plexus. I asked Him if there was an area He would like me to work in and He told me to focus on His solar plexus (without me communicating the feeling I had.)
During this healing I learned that an open 'E' sound works better for cleansing or removing negative energy and and 'O' sound works better for drawing in positive or healing energy.
At one point I moved up and was focusing on an higher part of the body were it would normally be a higher tone. But because the intent was focused very directly on an aspect of His energy the tone ended up being lower because it was on His "wavelength" (for at lack of a better term at this time) which are lower than are natural for me. I can't fully work within His tone range for a full healing, though that would probably be preferable.

The results were a better mood for us both (we were both kinda grumpy pants today). He reports feeling more centered and "in the moment" as well as clearing of the sinuses and soothing of a scratchy throat. His self esteem has been much higher since also, he just reported. Pretty good results given there were at least 3 interruptions from my 5yo lol.

*Edit to add* At the end of the healing I was given (from where I do not know for sure, I suspect His soul) the phrase "Find your beauty, to find your strength" to give to Him. I did not analyze or question it, I just said it loud and clear. He later told me the first thing that came to His mind was The Tree of Life. I am only vaguely familiar with The Tree of Life because of my work with the MM. He explained to me that going up The Tree of Life, Beauty comes before Strength. This spoke the Him and He had a couple realizations and worked through some things which I will not share details about here. Even better results that I first thought!

Learning to heal?

Healing is something I know I have the capacity to do. Over the past year I have done some healing work on my Mate. This healing is really very intimate and sexually based. I'm able to read Him and the healings so far have been effective. I am happy to be able to help Him. But have felt sightly disappointed that this was not a type of healing I could not readily share with others. Though I feel I could heal others in a similar way, I would not feel comfortable doing this type of healing on someone unless I was already intimate with them.

In March I revived some healing work from Robert for some chronic physical pain I had, then also some emotional pain. Later in March he also taught me the Manifestation Meditation (MM). Since then I have been using what I leaned from Robert to heal myself, with amazing results on the emotional end. 

There have been fairly good results on the physical end as well but I have still at times been struggling with physical pain. This week I have have been trying to manage some mid-back pain. Wednesday of this week the pain was so bad I was on the verge or crying and getting sick. I took some time to meditate and stretch; I through in a bit of sound resonating with good results. Low tones took that pain to a duel rowr and I was able to make it through the rest of my day. The next day my back was still bothering me so tried more sound resonating. I just so happened to learn basic Tibetan overtone singing (similar to but not exactly the same as throat singing) during my four years in high school choir. This time I used these techniques and for an longer period of time (45min or so). I used low tones at the very bottom of my vocal range. This time I ended up with amazing results; the pain was not just managed but gone! This is by far my most successful physical self-healing to date. 

Today I had the opportunity to try this healing out on my Mate who has been having some neck pain. I used massage as well (which i had already tried by itself with little results) Again Very good results! His neck feels much better and He and over all felt very good after. When we spoke afterwards He expressed that He was impressed by the tones and the results. I also felt quite good after. I feel that this technique was more directly effective on physical pain than what I have done in the past with Him that focused more on the emotional aspects. 

I am excited that I may be learning to heal in a way the I can help heal more people with as well! Though I do not feel I am ready for that just yet. 

Self love and Wholeness

I believe there are places within us that are made to be filled with love. One of these places is made to receive Self-love. The other is made to receive love from others, be that of family, friends or lovers. For a very long time I tried to fill both of these spaces with others love. I did have some self love but it was small and didn't quite fill that space that it needed to fill. So I tried to fill the rest of that space with others love. The problem is, that space can only truly be filled with the love made to fill it. Others love would fill that space, but only temporarily. As soon as I was alone again, it was gone. Leaving that space empty once again. This cycle was also diminishing what self-love I did have because I was neglecting it in favor of seeking others love.
Now that I have found full self-love, I have a feeling of wholeness. Both spaces are filled with the love they were made for. I no longer need to seek constant input from others. I no longer fear being alone. I no longer feel that emptiness. I have become much less needy and much more independent.
These changes are also having a positive effect on those around me. My Mate first of all, has seen the changes. My diminished neediness impacts Him most of all. He feels more at ease with me as I feel more at ease with myself. He even claims I am getting prettier lol. There has been a very positive impact on our relationship. A friend of mine recently commented on the change in my vibe. He says that he can't really put his finger on what has change but that he feels more affectionate towards me. We have had a historically close but not very physically affectionate friendship, so this is a change I noticed right away. I believe his new reaction to me has to do with me no longer needing so much attention/love from other so there is no longer an energy draw on my part. This makes him feel more free to express love because there will be no drain on him if he opens up to me.
The new wholeness I feel is such a wonderful feeling.